twilight
12.07.1998

at night
an obliterated moon
tells me about my loss
my dearest memories
desert me, taking off
to mingle with the clouds

darkness
captures my thoughts
gently

my heart
saturated with loneliness
is leaking
drops of liquidized pain
tickling into a basin
of unfulfilled hopes

during daytime
a scathing sun
lies to me about my love
my happiest dreams
are slung back at me
torn and wasted by reality

light
sharp and clear
frees my pain violently
my mind
deprived of its principles
is vacant
a train of hideous
but meaningless thoughts
travels through it
disappearing into
a tunnel of resignation

life is
between night and day
without fear or hope
a grey dawn before sunset

talk to me
about
joy